Notes from the other side

I'm nearing the end of my very first TWW and although I still hold a little hope, I'm pretty sure that it will be a BFN. There was a short time when I thought I might be pregnant, but now I feel like AF is  on her way. I was planning to test on Friday (12 dpo) but now think I might just wait through the weekend and if AF hasn't shown after that then I'll test on Monday. Although I've been charting it has been all over the place, as I've also had a cold. My temp is still up, but before I O'd it was up and down like a yoyo! Even now it goes up and down every day, but remains over the cover line.

Being the one that's trying to get knocked up has been harder than I thought it would be. I told myself that I was going to try and stay calm, but have found that it's pretty impossible! Every twinge, real or imaginary leaves me wondering if just maybe..... 

I watched J go through 6 attempts before a BFP and see that many bloggers are getting BFN's with IUI and IVF right now. As another blogger pointed out there are no guarantees! 

We ended up deciding to do the insem ourselves at home. It was pretty straightforward and so nice to hang out in our bed afterwards and not have to worry about a nurse knocking on the door telling you that your time is up!

We are heading to see friends for the weekend and we are all really looking forward to it. The 3 hr drive, not so much, but it'll be great once we are there! We still don't have any set plans, it depends on the weather, possibly the aquarium, water park or beach. It will be a great break before we get back to the real world next week. Work has already picked up for J and I'm back full time on Tuesday.